Pissed

So 2 years ago this week my mother was diagnosed with cancer, and I'm finally angry.
I have watched patients suffer from cancer. I have been with friends when they have died from cancer. I have watched co-workers struggle to help loved ones with cancer. I have watched cancer completely tear apart families and bankrupt people. I have watched hearts break from cancer.
I'm angry......I'm pissed.......I want to blame someone, something.......I want to break something.
My mother was diagnosed 2 years ago this week with cancer, and she was dead by September 26th. How is that possible? Why is it possible? What the hell are we doing?
Why are so many people made to suffer?
2 years later........I'm finally pissed......