Sunday, July 8, 2012

Mercenary

I have been making plans to sell my mothers house in Wanchese. It is just a house, right? Financially, it has been difficult for me to maintain. I have been feeling the need to simplify my life. Everyone has different opinions for me...."keep it until the housing market comes back", "sell it now", "rent it", etc. I feel strongly at this point it is time to put it on the market.
So I have been making plans to sell my mothers house. Intellectually, I know what to do. Emotionally, I'm a mess. This little house, in this little community, was my mothers delight. She loved her house, she loved her neighbors, she loved her community of Wanchese. I loved that she lived there.
So I have been making plans to sell my mothers house. I'm the sentimental kind. I'm having a hard time detaching from the emotion of selling my mothers house. I miss her so much and this seems mercenary. Which reminds me of a Little Feat song.......we both loved that band......but I digress.
So I'm making plans to sell my mothers house. It makes me cry.